Friday, August 21, 2009

Every ending has a new beginning

As we come to an end of this summer I am both excited and sad at the same time. I went through a roller coaster of emotions, but at the same time had the time of my life. Breaking up with my boyfriend was one of the best things I did for myself. Not only did it open up many, many doors, but it let me have one of the best summers of my life. You really never know where life will take you. The people you meet can change your life in an instant. I met some amazing people this summer and reconnected with some amazing old friends as well. It's funny how you get into a relationship and the rest of the world seems to just fade away in that moment of time. I hope that in my next relationship this doesn't happen.
I am definitely exhausted. This summer has wore me down both physically and emotionally. I don't think I have stopped since it started. Every time I tell myself that I want to stop and slow down for a bit I find something else to do. For now I think that is okay. I can slow down when I'm ready. I'm slowly getting excited for our trip to Spain. I have been way too busy to even realize that it is just around the corner. I guess that is what happens when you are having fun with life. You aren't constantly waiting around for something big to happen. You are making something big happen as you go.
Some fun things that I will miss about this summer: Boating on the lake, camping trips, spontaneous shopping trips with the girls, girls nights (that will continue beyond summer), Adirondack extreme, summer concerts (wish I went to more!), Being in the sun, swimming, Eric's hockey game (definitely will continue), My amazing summer party, The track and Saratoga, being with really good friends.
So as this summer comes to an end. I am very excited to see where fall will take me. My life these days feels very unplanned and for the first time, I'm okay with that. You really never do know where life will take you. Stop planning and live your life. It is my firm believing that life is all up to fate and that everything really does happen for a reason. I think that no matter what things will turn out okay. That my life will be amazing and I'm excited to see where it will take me. It's funny how only three years ago I thought I had everything laid out. I thought I knew exactly where I wanted to go and what I wanted to do. Now I have absolutely no idea and that is the best feeling in the world. I have every opportunity put in front of me and nothing holding me back from taking advantage of any of them.